Needing Breathing Room

Breathing Room Everyday I wake up and I’m glad that yesterday was a good day and I hope that today will be too.  Living with over 50 women can make life a little tough and there is sometimes no room to escape.  We all need a little breathing room now and again and I feel that sometimes, for a strange reason, that I have too much breathing room. I’m not used to being in a situation that’s stable and so I wait for the other shoe to drop.  I feel as though something is going to happen, it will be bad, I just don’t know what it is.  When these thoughts come, I often panic and have to remind myself that things are going good and it’s just a phase that my mind is going through, it will be over soon.  The problem with having thoughts like that just happen Read More …

Homelessness and Mental Health as Embarrassing

Embarrassing To be homeless is a very embarrassing thing, because it comes across as having absolutely no control whatsoever of your personal situation.  That statement is true of course, to be homeless means that you have no control over your living situation.  What homelessness implies is that you not only don’t have control over where you live, but you also don’t have control over your self and that can be very embarrassing to explain to others. In the past I have always tried to hide my homelessness from employers both current at the time and would be for fear that they would judge me as unstable and in need of help of the psychiatric kind.  What was embarrassing was not my homelessness, but my mental health.  I tried every conceivable way to control the way I was seen on the outside, that way I would not have to deal with Read More …