Needing Breathing Room

Breathing Room Everyday I wake up and I’m glad that yesterday was a good day and I hope that today will be too.  Living with over 50 women can make life a little tough and there is sometimes no room to escape.  We all need a little breathing room now and again and I feel that sometimes, for a strange reason, that I have too much breathing room. I’m not used to being in a situation that’s stable and so I wait for the other shoe to drop.  I feel as though something is going to happen, it will be bad, I just don’t know what it is.  When these thoughts come, I often panic and have to remind myself that things are going good and it’s just a phase that my mind is going through, it will be over soon.  The problem with having thoughts like that just happen Read More …

My Apology to All That I Have Affected

Making an apology is a very hard thing to do.  We never mean to hurt, cause pain and deliberately cause suffering to someone but sometimes that’s what we do.  I have caused pain to others in the form of my anxiety.  In the past I have quit jobs, been snide and cruel and have generally been a pain in the ass.  In order to become a better person, the past must be addressed and corrected. In addressing the past, I was the way I was due to anxiety and depression, many of the things that I did came from a very dark place within me.  I feel that I am coming out of that dark place but it is taking time and I am learning how to deal with the world and all of its complications.  My past was one that was filled with abuse and a lot of negativity. Read More …