Trying for perfection but achieving total imperfection

Perfection I tend to be an all or nothing type of gal, this is the way that I was raised.  If I wasn’t perfect I got smacked, kicked or belted, that’s just the way that it was.  I was raised to see what others needed and if I could get it for them.  I was raised to be in essence, perfect.  As I grew up I realized that I was about as imperfect as a person could be and that all my trying to please others, did nothing for me.  And that is where I am right now. I had a dream about where my life would go but that dream was based on someone else’s plan.  I was supposed to live out their dreams and be the perfect example of what a wonderful job they did in raising me.  I failed horribly at that task, I don’t think it Read More …

Who I am and Why I’m Here

Who I am is  a 42 year old homeless person who lives (if you can call it that), in Denver, CO. Over the years, I have been homeless due to various reasons, the same reasons that all of us homeless people find ourselves; lack of money, lack of resources, family issues, job issues – the list goes on and on.  I am grateful that I am not addicted, (food does not count)!  I’ve also been told that I’m relatively sane, so that’s nice.  In my journey as a homeless minority woman, I have learned many things and I have decided that all of the things that I have seen and heard would make a great blog.  There are many issues facing the homeless community that seem to be in the homeless community and nowhere else.  This is one of the reasons why I am here. The other reason of why Read More …

Dilemmas and their beginnings

The reason that this site has been created is to talk about dilemmas.  The dilemma of my dilemma’s, the City of Denver’s dilemmas and all dilemmas in general.  In order  to talk about a dilemma we first have to know what the meaning of the word is, here is its definition according to Webster. di·lem·ma diˈlemə,dīˈlemə/ noun plural noun: dilemmas a situation in which a difficult choice has to be made between two or more alternatives, especially equally undesirable ones. “the people often face the dilemma of feeding themselves or their cattle” a difficult situation or problem. “the insoluble dilemma of adolescence” LOGIC an argument forcing an opponent to choose either of two unfavorable alternatives. As you can see, life is one big dilemma, a constant struggle of two opposing views.  In the future, I will be discussing the predicaments of many different types of predicaments, whether there is a Read More …